$1,000,000 question

What the hell am I going to do with my life.
I need a career..not just a job.

It's so funny how it was ingrained in us as children that if you go to college you'll succeed and have a great job, etc. Just because you have a degree and graduate from a good school doesn't mean you'll have a great job. I only make $500 more a year because I have a degree. $40,000 education for $500 extra a year. Even if I worked here for 50 years I would barely recoup half of that amount.

I am very proud of my degree, don't get me wrong. I just know that this is not what I'm meant to do with my life. I wish I knew what I was meant to do. I keep waiting for an epiphany. A lightbulb. A bolt of lightning. HOLY CRAP! That's what I want to do. And then I would go do it.

A teacher? A speech therapist? An occupational therapist? A counselor/psychologist? A "fill in the blank"? I guess my biggest fear would be going to school to be one of these things (because I would have to go back for all of them), spending the money for school, becoming a "fill in the blank", and not liking it. I guess that's a gamble everyone takes, though isn't it? I like to think I could be a teacher. I admire teachers so much. But, what happens when you're mid school year and you are about ready to murder a child? That's the scary part!

Anyway, just random ramblings from my otherwise scatterbrained self.

30 weeks

29 weeks (l) 30 weeks (r)

I sense a hormone shift

Okay, I'm turning into one of those bitchy, hormonal pregnant women. Everything is getting on my nerves and I am just pissy in general. Consider yourself warned.

lol

This made me LOL today.

And yes, I just used LOL as a verb.

29 weeks

28 weeks (l) 29 weeks (r)

random pics

We bought these at Boardwalk in Shreveport. Cole won't be able to wear them until next summer, but they were on sale.

Justin added the fishing lures. They were his grandfathers. I also bought the little basketball and football. I really like the lures. :)

I love this little bear. I found him at Hobby Lobby and waited for him to go on sale. :)

Poor Cole's closet is full of crap.


This kid better be a boy.

pregnancy brain

I decided I was going to make my mom and my mother-in-law some of these for Mother's Day. They are called Peanut Butter Cheesecake Brownie Babies (not sure why they're called "babies?") Anyway, they're basically brownies with peanut butter cheesecake swirled in them. I was pretty excited about making them because they looked SO good. Anyway, I finally got them in the oven after making a HUGE mess. I'm usually pretty messy when I'm making anything, but especially something new. After they came out of the oven, I of course had to try one. Yeah, they weren't that good. The brownie tasted kind of not sweet. I was thinking maybe the cheesecake somehow took sweetness away from the brownie?? I had no idea. Justin tried a bite and he agreed. They're not very good. And the brownie mix I used was the one I always use because it's DELISH!

Well I just threw them away. I was pretty disappointed. I made a deal with Justin on Sunday that if he would go to Walmart and buy dog food, he could buy another brownie mix and I would make him some brownies. (I happen to know that anytime I make something sweet, he'll eat a little bit of it, and I end up eating the majority of what's left). (I'm okay with that). I think he was worried I was going to mess them up, too. While he was gone, I started thinking...I think you're supposed to add 1/2 cup of vegetable oil to this particular brownie mix. I don't remember adding vegetable oil when I made the brownie babies the previous morning.

So when he got home with the brownie mix, I checked the back of the box. Sure enough, you are supposed to add 1/2 cup of vegetable oil. And I'm fairly certain I didn't do that. But, I remember thinking while I was stirring the brownie mix the previous morning, man, this is kinda runny compared to how it usually is. I think instead of adding 1/2 cup of vegetable oil, I added 1/2 cup of water. I'm not really sure what that does to brownies, but it sure doesn't make them taste good. I'll tell you that. So when I made brownies on Sunday night, I made sure I added 1/2 cup of vegetable oil and they turned out DELISH. Super DELISH! So delish that I have to get a little bite every time I go to the kitchen. YUMMO.

I blame Cole. He's leeching blood away from my brain causing me to be scatter-brained. :)

random smattering of information

Let's see, I celebrated my first almost-Mother's Day yesterday. Around about 2 pm yesterday I had received mother's day wishes from several people except my husband. I said, you know who I haven't heard anything from? Um, you. He commenced to hand me a card he had snuck in the buggy on Friday night at Walmart. He had forgotten to give it to me. It was a very sweet card. :)
I go to the Dr on Wednesday for my one hour glucose test. If I pass it, great. If not, I have to take the 3 hour test. So hopefully I pass. Not looking forward to drinking that stuff, though. I need to remember to charge my ipod so I can take it with me.
I woke up this morning with what was apparently a migraine. I'm feeling better now, but it was weird! I have only ever had a migraine once before and I didn't even think about it being that until after I had spoken to the dr. It wasn't too bad, though. I know some people have it so much worse. I was just worried about my blood pressure.
I have some kind of pinched nerve in my butt. I know that sounds weird, but every once in a while it gets aggravated and I can hardly walk. Well, it got aggravated recently so I've been having issues with that. Not really anything you can do about it, I'm sure.
I sound like an old woman, listing out my ailments. :)

Other than that, we're trying to decide if we want to get the 3D ultrasound done. It's $150 and you get, like, 4 pictures and it lasts, like, 20 minutes. We're still a little paranoid that Cole is going to come out a girl and want a little reassurance. I keep looking at my previous ultrasound pics and thinking there's no way that's NOT a little boy. I also want to see what his little face looks like, but I also kind of want to be surprised when he's born. I don't know what to do.

I will get to see him in less than 12 weeks though. HOLY CRAP!


How far along? 28 weeks THIRD TRIMESTER
Total weight gain/loss: up about 15 lbs (I think) Guess we’ll see what Dr. Shaffer’s scale from Hell says on Wednesday. It will probably say I’ve gained like 30 pounds in the past month. Or maybe it’s the nurse that’s skewing my weight. I can’t decide.
Maternity clothes? I swear, if I outgrow another shirt I’m going to SCREAM! Looks like I’ll be wearing the same 5 dresses every day until I outgrow them, too.
Stretch marks? Not yet...I put some vitamin E on last night. Who knows if it will really help. It’s kinda greasy so I’m not sure how long I’ll keep it up.
Sleep: It’s okay. I’ve pretty much adjusted to peeing 3 times a night. If I can just keep making it to the bathroom without tripping I’ll be doing good.
Best moment this week: I finally felt a body part I could identify. I felt an elbow. It was sharp!
Movement: Little Cole is very active these days. He is getting so strong.
Food cravings: Unfortunately sweets. Except Saturday I was craving all kinds of fried food.
Gender: boy!
Labor Signs: None
Belly Button in or out? In-barely...The top part has started popping out a little bit.
What I miss: clothes that fit
What I am looking forward to: meeting our little guy
Weekly Wisdom: stay as stress-free as possible
Milestones: Elbow thing mentioned above, and he has started balling up in different spots.

Happy Mother's Day

Here are 27 and 28 weeks respectively. I've officially had to increase the size of my cropped picture. I was making it 4.5 x 2. I had to bump it up to 4.5 x 2.5. :)

I took this picture the other night when Cole was bunched up on the right side of my belly. Notice how it is every so slightly slanted?

twins vent

Okay, this is a little PSA (public service announcement) for anyone out there who happens to read my blog. If it doesn't apply to you, but you know someone who it might help, please pass it along to that person.
I am pregnant. Pregnant people tend to get large bellies. Some pregnant people get really big, some people not so big. It's all based on genetics and how you are carrying, etc. I have accepted the fact that I am bigger now than I was, and will get bigger still in the next 3 months. I won't say I'm thrilled about it, but it's not something I can help. I know it will be worth it! I know I'm going to have a big baby. I am destined for an 8.5 pounder (at least) if he goes to term. I will be huge. I am 5'3" and short waisted, so there isn't much room for a baby on my frame. I know this.
But, I swear to GOD, if one more person asks me if I am having twins, do not hold me responsible for what happens. I am NOT that freaking big. Granted, there are times I feel like I'm big enough to be carrying twins. And even if I LOOK big enough to be carrying twins, you know I'm not, so don't say crap like that to me. It is unacceptable.
Rule of thumb, don't tell a pregnant woman she looks big, little, miserable, ready to pop, the list goes on and on. We're hormonal, you never know what will happen.
The only acceptable comments are as follows:
You look so happy. You look beautiful. You look cute. You look (insert positive adjective here). (Or is that an adverb? I can't remember.)
I am carrying an extra 15 lbs around, of which 2 1/2 pounds is a child, strapped to my stomach, inside a uterus that is now the size of a basketball. Yes, a basketball. Does my stomach look like a basketall? Yes, it does. That's what is supposed to happen. I have come to terms with it. So should you. And get the hell off my back about how big I am. I can talk about how huge I am all day long if I want. Your response should be "you look great!" Lie if you have to. I DON'T CARE!!! It's either that, or beware the wrath of pregnant Lacy. Cause I'm really starting to get uncomfortable. And it's gonna be a LONG 3 months.

Rant over. Thanks! :)

camera shy

I have tried so hard to get a video of Cole kicking and moving around. I swear, everytime he is moving furniture around in there, or whatever it is he's doing, I grab the camera and he stops. I try to video for about 30 minutes and he'll kick right after I hit stop on the camera. So I try again. Finally, I get tired and put the camera down...he starts kicking again. I swear!! He's doing it just to toy with me. He's already just like his daddy. Doing stuff just to drive me nuts.

He's also started balling himself up on one side...usually under my ribs. It's super comfortable. I can't wait until I get to meet him! :)

One of these days I'll get him on video. It may not be until after he's born, though.

27 weeks

26 weeks (L) 27 weeks (R)...I don't know what my hair is doing. There's not much difference this week.


Here is 3 months through 7. If you click on the pic, you can see it full size.

Justin and I went to the Boardwalk in Shreveport to eat for Justin's bday (which is Wed). He also wanted to go to the Bass Pro Shop and Academy. We found the cutest stuff at the Osh Kosh store on the boardwalk. They had overall shorts on sale for $10 as well as a bunch of other summer stuff so we also got a little polo onesie and some shorts. All of this stuff is for Cole for next summer. It's so stinkin' cute. I also went to Hobby Lobby this weekend and the stuff that I wanted to get for Cole's room was on sale for 50% off. I was so super pumped. I found a couple of cute dresses at TJ Maxx that I can wear this summer and will be able to wear after Cole gets here. They're super cute. I have found that I like wearing dresses. They're just so comfie. I spent way too much money this weekend, but I got some really good stuff. I'm blaming it all on Justin cause it's his birthday week. Yes, week.

hormones

I often wondered if I would be one of those women who is completely unreasonable while pregnant. Just one big hormonal mess the entire time (like you see on tv). Well so far, I have only had a few moments of hormonal messiness. (My husband might say otherwise...) But, occasionally I have gotten really irritable and a few times I have burst into tears, but never for no reason. I always have a reason. :) I know I still have 3 months left for it to get crazy, but the previous months have been good, I think. I might be eating these words in the next few weeks. But, honestly PMS is way worse. I'm a way bigger B when I'm PMSing.

So we had a visitor at 1:22 am this morning. A stupid neighborhood dog. On my back patio. Riling up Sadie. Trying to get in my house. Seriously?? 1:22 am?? Long story short, the dog finally left, but it wasn't until almost 3 that I went back to sleep. Because after the dog left, my son decided to wake up and play let's see how hard we can kick mom in the cervix and bladder. That's a fun game. He's pretty good at it, too. I keep thinking, man, when he weighs about 7 lbs (he weighs about 2 right now) he's gonna be REALLY good at that game. But, by then, hopefully his feet won't be down there anymore. Then he can start a new game: let's see how hard we can kick mom in the RIBS. I have much to look forward to.

Seriously though, I really like when he's wiggly and kicking, even if it does hurt sometimes. It's just an amazing thing to experience.